Written by a female client –
“I have been in therapy since I hit puberty, and have seen countless professionals over the past ten years. I was mostly in therapy to fortify my constant battles with chronic pain and anxiety (though admittedly, sometimes I just needed a kind ear to cry to). For awhile, my best coping skill was to express my internal turmoil externally through a rampant eating disorder and to swallow a handful of psych meds to numb out the pain.
But that was then, and this is now – I’m writing today about the hope I feel after spending time with Helena and undergoing major transformations. Helena McMahon was the first therapist I saw after months in eating disorder treatment – from residential treatment to PHP and IOP, I had been through the systems set up for “severe cases.” It had been difficult, but necessary. When I called Helena to schedule my therapy session out of treatment, I was so scared. I was terrified of leaving the safe womb of caring practitioners and fellow survivors of ED – what was I supposed to do back in the real world? How could I explain what I had been through? How would I ever rise above the trauma that set me in the treatment in the first place? How would I ever eat again without hating myself?
Well, Helena had the answers. I am forever grateful to her endless supply of practical optimism, witty humor, new articles and techniques to try out – and most of all – her ocean of love. Going to see Helena for therapy is so much more than venting about whatever cloud is passing over my world that day. It’s a chance to improve my self-talk, reach self-discoveries, and to witness a small business owner, powerful woman, creator and mother in action. Today, I am proud to have been symptom free for two years. No more bingeing, purging, overexercising, rampant blaming, or blind hate for my body. I’m even off of all twelve of the prescription drugs I was on (which was my own unique decision, and I definitely do not advocate 0 meds for all – it was just the right thing for me.) I have finally become the resilient person I always wanted to be, but never dared to hope of becoming, for fear it wouldn’t happen. I dare to hope now. I respect my fear and anxiety, I feel it and honor it – and, I don’t let myself wallow in it either. I’m nowhere near perfect and on just the beginning of my journey, but I can say I am miles from where I started.
If you have doubts about starting therapy, please give it a chance (or two!). Not every therapist will be the perfect match, which I can attest to having seen so many different practitioners. However, I do know it is possible to find someone to trust and confide in. When it feels like trusting anyone is impossible, I’ve found (through the help of Helena!) that radical acceptance, self love and cautious leaps of faith are in order. Even after immeasurable hurt and trauma and loss, I have experienced that it is still possible to trust and hope. If you doubt yourself, dislike yourself or even if you just spend your days confused or feeling alone, I urge to you take a leap of faith for yourself and your future… schedule an appointment with Helena and start reality-checking those fears.”